Wednesday, January 16, 2008

Put your oxygen mask on first...

As some of you know, I've slipped off the recovery wagon and am fighting tooth and nail to get back on.

I haven't been reading many blogs lately. Those that I do find time to read, I often do not comment on.

I often feel guilty about that.

On my private blog (send an email to diggingmeup at gmail dot com if you'd like an invite!) I've been asking for support and encouragement. A lot.

And I often apologize to my readers/friends for not being able to reciprocate.

Yesterday, as I was about to type yet another apology, I stopped. "Put your own oxygen mask on first before helping your child/loved one/neighbor."

Last year, I took my son on his very first plane ride. I buckled him in and we listened as the flight attendants went through the safety instructions. They were talking about the oxygen masks when one flight attendant made a point of coming to me and reiterating, "Make sure you put yours on first before helping your son with his."

I smiled politely as I thanked her, but inside I scoffed, "What the hell, lady? Do you honestly think I'll take care of myself before my precious child??? Dream f-ing on!!"

But as I go through (yet another) slip in my recovery, I realize the truth in that statement. If I don't take care of me first, I won't be around to take care of anyone else.

So, if I'm quiet in our neck of the blogosphere for a while longer, please know that I think about each and every one of you often with lots of love and tons of support. And when I get back on that recovery wagon, know that I'll be taking the reins and driving by your house to help you.


Charlynn said...

You don't have to apologize for anything, doll. Focus on healing yourself. The rest will come later.

lauren said...

I hope you are doing well, I so can relate to this posting!!! Oh to well!!
Please take care Lauren